I feel like I am preparing for every scenario possible with this child who will be born soon. There are all of these "what if's" going on in my head and I feel like I am training for some covert operation and need to be ready for whatever flies my way. I literally just typed a two page document listing Ava's schedule and her activities along with important phone numbers, name of her teacher, how many dairy items she can have per day, when her daisy troop meetings are, how to apply oils to her if she is coughing, etc. There is one for our dog too.
And I'm also making little piles everywhere with important documents. I have the "girl scout pile" with the money that needs to be turned in so if I'm not around to deliver it, it can be located and taken to Ava's daisy troop meeting. I also have a "tax pile" with all of our documents ready for our tax guy who we will see soon but, who knows? Maybe I won't see him soon. My goal for tomorrow is to stock up on toilet paper and food items for Ava so the person watching her while we are gone will be able to use our toilet without worrying. This time around being pregnant is soooo different.
When I was pregnant with Ava, we of course had things to plan for but we did not have another child who needed arranging. We just drove to the hospital at midnight, I had my sister straighten my hair first (what a stupid thing to do by the way), and all we had to remember was to lock the door when we left our home. That was it. I didn't need to have meals available for another human being, or directions for medicine written out, or a reminder for when library day is at school. We just blew away into the wind and came home with our beautiful Ava.
Now, I'm actually not stressing. It may seem like I am but I'm not. I am really glad I am getting all of this done because that makes me feel better. I do quality assurance stuff for work so me being organized is just a way of life for me. I'm getting the things done that I know I have control over. And I also know that flexibility is key to this whole birth thing because babies have their own agenda - and so does God. So while, yes, I am prepping and getting prepared, I also feel very relaxed in that the Lord has all of this covered.
I am literally just savoring these final weeks (or days - who knows?!) until our son comes. I am in a perfect place right now and just am thanking the good Lord for arranging all of this in His time. Because we had prayed for so long to have this baby - and now it is almost upon us! And the timing is just perfect. All of the noise around me - I just am shutting it out and focusing on our little expanding family. I am at such peace and peace like this only comes from the Lord.
So thank you to all who will be helping us with our sweet Ava while we are gone having our son! We could not do any of this without you! And I know she will be taken care of so well so that puts me right at ease.
I can't wait for this little baby to greet us all!
-Emily
